good enough?

I have this thing where i feel like no one even cares if im writing this, so which is why i havent written one in forever. Lately ive been feeling like im not good enough for anyone no matter what i do. People either have this fucking superiority complex that makes them think theyre better than me or they focus on one minor imperfection and therefore see you as a lesser person. I dont think im a bad looking guy, i think i have a good personality, and i think i can be fun to talk to. No one ever thinks that, they hear that i have a strange voice and immideately focus only on the voice and not what the voice is saying. Or they dont even bother to get to know me and just call me annoying.
What im saying is that ppl are way to quick to judge others and becuz of that i dont think ill ever be good enough to be liked/loved...

love withdrawls

Im currently going through love withdrawls. Its when you just dumped someone and yr not necisarily missing them but you do miss having a person you can love and trust and just be happy with. Its a sorta bittersweet lonliness where yr happy you lost the old gf/bf but yr sad yr not in love anymore. so yeah basically im saying i need a new girl.

i cant just settle for anyone tho, i have standards and i gotta follow them alll this time, no more settling. All i want is a nice girl whos somewhat pretty, doesnt do drugs, doesnt start drama, and isnt a lying hoebag. just tell me the truth for chrissakes

another freaky ass dream

yeah last night i had another weird ass dream, like me and kirsten were sent to this giant tower thing for crazy ppl. only the whole dream was in the form of a gameboy color game. seriously it looked like the overworld from pokemon or something. anyways somehow we got seperated and i had to rescue her from one of the 42 floors. eventually i did and they let us go. it was quite an experience lmfao

i have no friends...

well not really but it seems that way, i only have like 3 or 4 ppl who talk to me online anymore, its kinda depressing, well not really but eh...

fucked up... big time...

I feel like I'm starting to fuck up everything that was good in my life.
I have no idea what to do
I want to let ppl get closer to me I really do
But I only end up pushing them away
Im losing friends, ppl who used to talk to me all the time dont bother with me anymore
Even the things that mean the most to me seem to be fading now
Ill prolly end up alone and depressed again
Only without anyone to help me this time
Im sorry, All I can do is bring ppl down

love makes you do crazy things...

even things you promised yrself you wouldnt do...

some things are just more important, sometimes you just have to be there for someone.

I Fucking Miss Jess Jones/I Fucking Love Kirsten Lebel(part 2)

Well Jess left today and i already miss her, she needs to get her ass back here, everyone loves her here and we all cant wait for her to get back <3

I got to spend the whole day with Kirsten tho, shes seriously the most incredible girl ive ever known, i cant even describe how much i love her, i mean its only been a week and i already feel so much for her... idk... <33333333333