fave songs a-z

A - At The Bottom of Everything by Bright Eyes
B - Babies by Pulp
C - Country Rain by Slowdive
D - Darklands by The Jesus and Mary Chain
E - The Everlasting by Manic Street Preachers
F - For a Pessimist, Im Pretty Optimistic by Paramore
G - Glory of the 80's by Tori Amos
H - Harborcoat by R.E.M.
I - I Wanna Be Adored by The Stone Roses
J - Just Cant Get Enough by Depeche Mode
K - Kings Crossing by Elliott Smith
L - Lightning Crashes by Live
M - My Iron Lung by Radiohead
N - November by Azure Ray
O - On the Radio by Regina Spektor
P - Pictures of You by The Cure
Q - Queer by Garbage
R - Romeo and Juliet by Dire Straits
S - Something Vauge by Bright Eyes
T - This Is The One by The Stone Roses
U - Unholy Confessions by Avenged Sevenfold
V - Vow by Garbage
W - When You Sleep by My Bloody Valentine
X - X Offender by Blondie
Y - Y Control by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Z - Zero by Smashing Pumpkins
# - 1000 Oceans by Tori Amos

senseless

nothing ever stops me from being real
always breaking promises, making deals
im a slut for all the lies
you cant trust me to run and hide

i can only break up perfect moments
fucking up the things you fought for
always, denying yr assumptions
to substitute morality

i cant save you how can i save myself
i wont save you cuz it wont bother me

what hates itself cant be a hypocrite
why love the world when theres no joy to it

homecoming

homecoming was tonight... it was pretty bittersweet (which is one of my favourite words btw) i mean bri couldnt go so i was really sad. especially during the first slow dance when i just watch everyone else and i just sat out in the corner, but alicia danced with me during the second one... it was When Youre Gone by Avril and it was kinda appropriate. and Alicia apologized for overreacting on me and hurting me before, so im glad. i love her haha shes my bestie. i do really wish bri couldve come tho... =/

ive been thinking

about alot of stuff lately. like stuff thats in the past and i really wish i would just put behind me. but i cant for some reason, i mean its not good memories at all, i have no reason why i would want to remember it. i need to learn to enjoy the present and not look back at all the mistakes ive made and the time ive wasted. like next week is gonna be me and bri's one month. already, that fast, and its the longest relationship ive ever been in. its the best too. im not gonna jinx myself and say its perfect tho, becuz knowing me itll prolly fuck up somehow if i say that so i wont. but it really is greattt. i made her a mix cd today and she gave me the movie Jennifer, which ill prolly watch later tonight. apparently a cat gets eaten and ashley can do a mean impresson of it haha

i dont hate my life

long time since i actually wrote a blog. I honestly cant say why, alot of stuff has happened, i mean horrible drama, and amazing new friends, and amazing new girlfriend, and the old friends still pull through. I guess you could say ive found a good sense of balance in my life. I never thought that school would actually help me straighten out my life but im no longer the super-depressed mental wreck i was at the end of the summer. The daily drawl is made so much easier when i have awesome ppl i get to see all day especially Bri and Alicia, without them i prolly wouldnt even get out of bed. I even found a new group of friends to hang with which i guess is pretty awesome. I still need to write an ecosystems essay hahaha that is like something that ill always talk about finishing but never get done only i will get it done!!! and when i do i will rejoice in my completion!